Part 37 The Chronicles Of Being Sarah Marie

“You Just Can’t Make This Shit Up;

Who, What & How The Fuck Have I Survived The Unthinkable!”

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“It’s not the trauma that defines us, it’s the courage it takes to survive it and how we choose to move on from it!” Remember: Courage is not the absence of fear; it’s about acting in the presence of it!”

I realized that this series would be so much easier if I was a petty, vindictive bitch and to be honest, sometimes I wish I were. However, it’s just not in my DNA.

I have swept so much of my experience under the rug trying desperately to protect others in lieu of healing myself.

I have to interrupt my pattern of behavior that will “go along to get along” in order to avoid conflict because it creates the space for people to abuse, disrespect and violate boundaries that are invisible.

I am just going to share the truth of what I’ve been through and how I have managed to survive it all - WITH JOY and GRATITUDE in my heart.♥️🥰

This is not just about sharing my story so that I can heal, it’s letting you into my experience so that you can too.

It’s so easy to fall back into the familiar ways of being, but when you can recognize the fall-back, the comeback is imminent.

My ex-husband triggered my issues with past traumas surrounding fear so that I could heal.

What a treasure. What a gift. How grateful I am for the lessons I have learned because of his presence in my life and my journey. I am so much stronger because of it.

“Domestic abuse now includes violent, physical, sexual, psychological and financial abuse. The offense can carry a maximum of 14 years. Domestic abuse can include: being threatened.”

What has been the most difficult part of your journey with abuse and/or trauma?

Was one of the questions asked in my group therapy session several months ago.

The reigning consensus was, trying to understand and wrap our hearts around how someone that vowed to love, honor, respect, and protect you, can hurt you so deeply over and over, and over again, enjoy it, and take pleasure in causing you pain?

Do you ever really know the real person in there?

I was his wife, and the ONLY one he didn’t honor, respect or protect.

Why would someone who has nothing to hide, go through such extreme measures, the time, the effort, the disturbing amount of lies, and almost 2 years post-divorce, continue to do everything in their power to silence your voice and fight to take everything from you?

Could it be to find ways to hate you and make you responsible for their actions in order to justify their behavior?

Is it to control the narrative of “the story” they have carefully weaved, and shaped with lies and deceit to make you the villain, and them the victim?

To keep the truth from coming out? All of the above?

I have tried to get into the psyche of and explore the heart and mind of any human being that makes the conscious choice to:

1. maliciously cause pain

2. seek revenge

3. “make someone pay”

4. “teach them a lesson”

5. “make an example” out of you so that everyone else in their orbit understands what will happen to them if they get out of line

6. punish them financially

7. threaten their livelihood,

8. threaten to kill them

9. or even worse actually cause bodily harm or death?

Instead of just relinquishing control, taking accountability for their actions/behavior, moving on with their life in a healthy way, and sitting in and healing their own pain without the need to destroy your life.

That is a very dark place to exist, and one I will never be able to comprehend.

No matter the pain inflicted onto me, the lies told about me, the smear campaign against me, the defamatory remarks made about me, by name, on this platform, and others, the material possessions taken from me, and the hate perpetuated towards me, I still have nothing but love, forgiveness and compassion in my heart for the very ones choosing to harm.

There are a couple of things that can’t be bought or silenced: 1. The Truth. 2. My Voice.

Love and Light🌷

Sarah Marie 🤗

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