Part 23 The Chronicles Of Being Sarah Marie

“You Just Can’t Make This Shit Up;

Who The Fuck Did I Divorce?”

By this time, I didn’t feel safe, or protected, or free. I was a sitting duck! Anything I said, anything I did, any person I talked to that did not align with what he felt was acceptable, I always found myself being warned, berated, chastised and threatened.

This was my Facebook Post on Friday, February 28, 2025:

Heyyyyyyy Family and Happy Friyayyy!🥰♥️🥳

Oooooooh Lawd, I just want Jesus to fix it!😞🙏🏽

Somebody please help me make sense of what’s happening in this country!!😥

We are definitely experiencing “evil days” and facing a Constitutional Crisis with our country in the hands of aristocratic bullies, cowards and man babies hungry for power, money and control to make up for their insecurities and “short” comings.

In the words of Kendrick Lamar, “I believe it is God’s plan to show us the liar”; and expose the truth and evil heartless abuse of power! WE THE PEOPLE are much more powerful when we stand up for what’s right, stick together, work together and fight for our democracy! It’s absolutely terrifying that we are only one month in a 4 year term and they have managed to wreak havoc on the most vulnerable among us.

Listen! I recorded this short video a week and one day ago and never posted it because I know I look crazy.🤪

I had literally just peeled myself off my bedroom floor, wincing from pain that brought me to tears and nursing wounds. I was trying to hold on to Lil Bertha (my walker😬) but I just kept slipping down and cut my elbow and my bootay on the screws. Don’t ask me how cause I can’t tell you, but quite sure I could have won America’s Funniest Videos if a camera had been rolling.😂

I started my BUT God campaign on why I couldn’t post it and finally surrendered to the voice that said: “Sarah, you are worried about the wrong thing”! I was like oooooweeee you sho right about that!😬

I admit that I have watched it a dozen times and it always makes me smile only because I know what I’ve been through and have survived.

The key is to, “Let your smile Change The World; don’t let the world change YOUR Smile”!

I have missed connecting with you and just wanted you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all!

It brings me the greatest joy to sew seeds of positivity into someone and encourage them beyond their circumstances, even when I’m in my darkest moments. It’s just how I love and who I choose to be!😇🙏🏽

My heart is heavy with grief and sadness for my friends who just a month ago lost their only son in a horrific, violent and senseless way.😥 I pray for their continued strength, peace, healing and comfort EVERYDAY. At their request, I also pray for the tortured soul of the person(s) responsible for committing this evil act and for their capture.🙏🏽

Ever since this happened, I have been reaching out to my friends who I don’t necessarily talk to often, just to check on them, see if they’re ok, and to simply say I LOVE YOU.

I reached out to one particular friend and she didn’t respond to my texts which was unlike her. After my 3rd text attempt, I called. She answered and I was relieved to hear her usual sweet voice and positive disposition, only to find out that she too is dealing with the vindictive, abusive behavior of a narcissistic ex-husband who’s main purpose is to inflict as much pain on her as humanly possible.

He continues to drag her through the courts with frivolous lawsuits, lies, deceit, intimidation tactics and is weaponizing the legal system against her because he has the money, power and paid for influence to do it.

My soul was crushed hearing that she had lost 40 lbs. because of the stress and lack of funds even to buy groceries. Her home was damaged after hurricane Beryl and is on the verge of collapse, she lost her car, her health is threatened, her blood pressure is through the roof, she has been working on her own case pro se because she can’t afford an attorney, her mother is 88 years old and is in a state of unrest watching her daughter suffer at the hands of someone she once loved and considered a son.

I broke down and wept, just sobbing uncontrollably because my friend was hurting and I felt powerless to do anything to help her.

Then I lost it again when my loving, compassionate sister with a heart of gold, (who is dealing with the emotional trauma of witnessing what her own sister is going through, has become my predominant care taker, which has put a strain and weight on her mental and physical health and her finances all because of someone she loved, was there for when he was in need, and considered a brother) offer to buy my friend some groceries so she would at least have food to eat.

My friend was overcome with gratitude, accepted the offer, sent us a list of what she needed and my sister immediately placed the order.😭

It makes me sick to my stomach to know that there is a woman experiencing domestic abuse and trauma on some level every 13 seconds in this country alone.🥵 And for ridiculous, unnecessary reasons.

I mean why? Because of an inflated, yet fragile, bruised ego (Edging God Out), because you want to exert control and dominance over your prey? Because you’re angry she chose to love herself in lieu of your lies, betrayal and disrespect? Because it makes you feel like a man to purposely seek to destroy someone you once took a vow to love, honor, respect, cherish, protect and now your desire is to cause hurt, harm and destruction because you can?

From the many stories of abuse I have heard, and continue to hear EVERY week, although no two experiences are the same, the profile and behaviors of the narcissistic abuser are 100% identical.

These women inspire me to keep fighting the good fight and the courage to continue sharing my journey.

Many have been abandoned, wounded physically, beaten down emotionally, broken financially, desolate, left to fend for themselves, homeless w/their children, hungry, with no money, no family support, and limited government housing/resources due to over capacity, red tape and waiting lists. Shit, if I didn’t have the support of my family and friends, I would be in the same boat.

“Don't be afraid to speak the truth! Your story could be the key to someone else's breakthrough. So, tell it!”

- Silent Cries

Remember:

“The devil is not attacking you because you’re weak, in fact he is attacking you because you are a threat. You possess something incredibly valuable within you.

Thieves don’t try to break into empty houses, they target homes filled with treasures. Similarly, the enemy knows the power you carry, that’s why he is relentless in his efforts to discourage you. The devil couldn’t take you out, so he’s trying to wear you out. He wants to drain your energy, steal your joy, and cloud your vision. But don’t you ever give in, the tide is about to turn in your favor. Change is coming, and victory is within your reach. God knows you’re tired. He knows you’re trying. He sees every tear you’ve shed, and He knows every battle you’ve fought. In these moments of struggle, put HIM first. Trust in HIM with all your heart. Lean on His promises and find strength, and believe in His word. He will make a way for you even when you aren’t sure of the outcome. God is with you and for you, cheering you on through every challenge, and in the midst of it all, He is working all things together for your good. He is shaping your path and preparing you for your incredible journey ahead.”

-InspireThrive

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