Part 42 The Chronicles Of Being Sarah Marie
āYou Just Canāt Make This Shit Up;
Who, What & How The Fuck Have I Survived The Unthinkable!ā
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So, today was one of those days. As I was preparing to do a video for this series, I stood up from my walker to sit in the chair, missed it entirely, hit the floor and ended up doing the video sitting right where I landed.š¤
Seriously, it took me 18 minutes to figure out how to get my ass up . Every time I would push up using my left hand as leverage just to get to my knees, my left shoulder (yes, the one I dislocated a couple of years ago) kept snap, crackle, popping, and giving out.š¤¢
It wasnāt cute, but my determination to not let the floor win, was sexy as hell! I needed a cocktail.š¹
Anyone that knows me, understands that my methods of dealing with the atrocities of life as they show up is to find ways to laugh through the pain, at the situation, or at myself, which ultimately gives everyone around me permission to do the same.
In revisiting the last 6 years of trauma, surprisingly, has become an empowering pathway toward healing my heart.
When you look back at everything youāve survived, it becomes clear just how strong youāve had to be.
It takes an incredible amount of internal grit to face moments of utter despair, and still come out the other sideāeven if you did it while looking and feeling like a hot ass mess.š
The subject matter of betrayal, abuse, divorcing a narcissist, while at the same time experiencing the dangers and challenges associated with a progressively debilitating condition, is serious, painful, and exhausting.
However, being able to find moments to laugh at the absurdity of it all, has helped me to strip the trauma of its power over me.
Sometimes laughter, in moments that are meant to break you, can provide the necessary breathing room to process heavy emotions without being overwhelmed by them.
The journey, your journey, can transform painful memories into a foundation for strength and emotional resilience.
As I share the āTimeline Of Retaliationā against me, you will know my fears, my pleas, my heart, my pain, everything I have done to move on, to support his decisions, and STILL 6 years later the emotional, mental, financial, and psychological abuse, intimidation, scare tactics, the campaign to keep the truth hidden continues, and because of it, so does my mission.
At the same time you will see my growth from fear of what he would do to me, or take from me; to loving myself enough to say āIām Doneā allowing you to dishonor me, bully me, threaten me, disrespect me AND mean it.
#Knowyourworth #Loveyourself #Honoryourself #Respectyourself #Protectyourheart
Love & Light,
Sarah Marieš¹
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